wahsehh , this few days ,
got the feeling of changing my blog the url lehhs ~
and turning it to a private one ...
maybe i shld ...
on friday , i finally went to band ... -.-
i was like , keep counting the number of hours before band ends .
then i had to bring instrument home .
damn heavy , i about 2 years nvr bring home instrument le lorhhs .
hand damn pain ... x.x
then at night , went to eat sakae wif vonneh .
damn funny lorhhs .
then i yesterday went to eat steamboat buffet wif my family .
then i went to pioneer mall wif daddy .
daddy was lyk , u go out how come can spend so much money .
LOL
my boredness , my jealousy , my pain , my sufferings ...
my selfish thoughts for myself ...
my selfless thoughts for other people ...
my heart and my outer mask ...
confused and panicking ...
scared and trembling ...
but what can i do ?
i can even envy cockroaches ,
they have things that i want for my whole life and now have very little left ...
the song of the heart ,the truth of the darkness ...
the things i seek ...
can be attain by ppl with or without courage ...
but yet , i haven yet attain them and it doesnt seem lyk i would .
the care , the concern , the attention of the people around me .
i cant even get such a small thing .
even if i hav , it's in very small portions .
am i selfish ? or m i ignorant ?
maybe it would be better if i cry everything out then die ...
the whole world would be happier .
