Just Black And White

Thursday, October 23, 2008

school days .
today is the second last day of school ,
and i m not planning to go to school 2mrw .
there's no point .
if i go to school only to sleep ,
then why dont i do it at home ?
i hav a more comfortable bed at home ...

while i m lying to myself , i lie to other ppl too .
to bring more confusion and chaos which comes back to cloud my heart again .
ppl i love , ppl i lyk , ppl i dislyk and ppl i hate ...
the darkness in my heart gets blacker and blacker everyday ...
and all i can do , is to cloud my eyes so i cant see it ...
the screams . the pain . the struggling coming from deep within me ...
and yet , all i am doing , is ignoring my inner self ...
and do as though i have been happy for a hundred years ...
showing the whole world i can do fine on my own ,
but the truth is , i more den anyone , is collapsing soon .
there's no need to tell them , cause it's my fate .
this , i admit .
while everybody has a smile on their face ,
not all of them shows their true emotions ...
their screams and shouts which cant be heard by anyone .
and a small hand reaching out , waiting to be rescued
from the sea of darkness ...
but for me , there's no point ...
i will not wait ... the pain there shall be left there as a wound .
the darkness there will grow ...
and this fake mask will continue doing as it shld .
and my inner self shall sink into darkness ...
until the day it is meant to see the light again ...

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Monday, October 20, 2008

yesterday was not feeling well for the whole day .
headache, strengthless, feeling very cold and vision keeps getting burred .
so i slept for almost the whole day .
i even lost my appetite in which i only ate half a bowl of noodles ! >.<
den nearing nightfall ,
we went out , wanting to meet daddy and eat my steamboat buffet .
when i was walking , i keep feeling giddy ,
thinking it was normal bcos i was sick , i continued walking .
until i reached the bus-stop .
my vision started to turn black all over .
then i completely lost all conscious and blacked-out .
i woke up due to hearing my mother calling my name
and the pain tat my head knocked on the concrete floor .
then i rested at the bus-stop for awhile before going home .
slept ~
when i woke up , i was lyk completely feeling well .
how can i tell ?
my stomach was growling and complaining . :D
then daddy brought us out to eat .
food was nvr so nice before ! ^^

as for today,
i m planning to spend the whole day at home slacking .
oh-hohohohos ! ^^

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Saturday, October 18, 2008

today we went to sentosa .
miie , angela , KL, MK , JZ and WT .
we played at siloso beach .
frisbee and sand .
den dey wanna kayak and so ,for the first time in my life ,
i sat in a kayak . when on the kayak ,
i was wondering whether we were going to capsize or not ?
in the end , it turns out to be safe ! ^^
and the scenery was beautiful .
den minkit went home ,
the rest all down the water .
played lots of things in the water .
and oso for the first time ,
i walked around sentosa bare-footed . =='
den we walk here walk dere and saw peacocks !
4 of them . they were so damn cool and beautiful creatures .
the only thing i did not see was a monkey . =='
after everything , we went back to vivo eat .
and when i was eating , i completely didnt noe jz went home ... =='
den we went to kailiang's house .
slacked then went home ...

I DIDNT GET TO SEE WB AGAIN ~ !!!
XINYI ~ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Friday, October 17, 2008

and so well ,
i didn't go to school today .
which was in exchange for next week i hav to go to school EVERYDAY .
EVEN to band . >.<"
i slept all the way till noon ,
then i went out to central at last minute notice .
met xinyi and her friends .
den went to take passport photo and went to lavender make ic .
and den the genius urs truly actually forgotten how to write her chinese name . =='
den we went to marina .
and i forgotten which shirt i wanted to buy . .__.
so i went to buy a new wallet . ^^
den we went to sm's house .
OMG ! for the first time in my life ,
i ate tat little for a birthday party .
i ate 2 hotdogs , 1 prawn , 1 salmon slice and 1 mayonaise mushroom ?
and that's it .
so now i m starving lyk crazy ... -.-"

I WANNA SEE WB ~~~~~ !!!! >.<

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11:11 PM;

i got fedup wif blogger and got even more fedup wif multiply ,
so i came back to blogger . =='
anyway , tis blog is merely ment for miie to share my thoughts .
so i dun really nid to update often .
only when i m in deep agitation of an emotion .
maybe happy ? sad ? angry ?
see first bahhs ...

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11:08 PM;