school days .
today is the second last day of school ,
and i m not planning to go to school 2mrw .
there's no point .
if i go to school only to sleep ,
then why dont i do it at home ?
i hav a more comfortable bed at home ...
while i m lying to myself , i lie to other ppl too .
to bring more confusion and chaos which comes back to cloud my heart again .
ppl i love , ppl i lyk , ppl i dislyk and ppl i hate ...
the darkness in my heart gets blacker and blacker everyday ...
and all i can do , is to cloud my eyes so i cant see it ...
the screams . the pain . the struggling coming from deep within me ...
and yet , all i am doing , is ignoring my inner self ...
and do as though i have been happy for a hundred years ...
showing the whole world i can do fine on my own ,
but the truth is , i more den anyone , is collapsing soon .
there's no need to tell them , cause it's my fate .
this , i admit .
while everybody has a smile on their face ,
not all of them shows their true emotions ...
their screams and shouts which cant be heard by anyone .
and a small hand reaching out , waiting to be rescued
from the sea of darkness ...
but for me , there's no point ...
i will not wait ... the pain there shall be left there as a wound .
the darkness there will grow ...
and this fake mask will continue doing as it shld .
and my inner self shall sink into darkness ...
until the day it is meant to see the light again ...
