Black&White

the very last time...

2009-12-08T01:14:00.003+08:00

THIS IS THE VERY LAST TIME I M EVER GOING TO UPDATE THIS BLOG.

WHY?

BCOS I SHITED ALR.
ZOEY IS NEW AT SOMEWHR HERE.

2009-08-30T15:20:00.000+08:00

2009-08-30T15:16:00.001+08:00

CLASS OUTING ~

2009-02-22T15:13:00.002+08:00

yesterday was the first ever class dinner ~ !
oh-hohohohos ~

woke up at 1+ yesterday (and maybe earlier , but i slept again)
then left the house at 2.30, went to suntec city ~
ate at kfc and auntie anne then went to shop shop awhile .
saw damn nice clocks and went into toys'r'us and played with bunny puppet
before going into "build-a-bear workshop".
the workshop is so damn cool la .
u can stuff the bear yourself and dress the bear up .
there are so many clothes and accessories for the bears la ~
i swear i m gonna buy one lorhhs .
after that i went to marine square, met with krys, jr and ben ng .
then we met jes and went to hunt for seoul garden .
we were the first to reach .
then we ate and ate and ate ~
i was the last-man-standing again. -.-
the whole class actually waited for me to eat finish lorhhs .
and the ppl at seoul garden TOOK AWAY MY CUTTLEFISH ~
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHSSSSSSS ~ T^T
then we went to the staircase beside seoul garden and played some games leaving .
went back to jp and waatch midnight movie wif krys,ben ng, louis, feifan, junhui, chongxun and soonhui.
den junhui, feifan and chong xun send me home ~
went home , got nagged at by daddy for more then one hr ... -.-

SHIT BAND !

2009-02-02T16:47:00.002+08:00

i m starting to hate band more and more alr .
if u are so that distrusting of me , then why continue putting me in band?
kick me out and giv me another cca of better choice la.
wouldnt that be better for the both of us? better for the welfare and attendanced of band?
true, i really hate band to the core,
and i hav been finding means and ways to skip it.
but when i promise vonneh and sl or choo that i will go, i did go din i?
this is my promise: i will try to come for as many practices as possible.
and this is my swear:
I, ZOEY CHUA, SWEAR THAT AFTER SYF 2009, I WILL HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH JWSB EVER AGAIN.
whether we win a gold or attain a cop is oso none of my business.

--------- and that ends my fustrations.
idiot days and dumb times, when will they stop coming?

2009-02-01T21:30:00.002+08:00

when for work on friday.
just giving out flyers and service.
and injuring my finger and got hit by nurul carrying a big stack of plates in the ribs x.x
and i got stuck at the stairs when going home.
[result of acting smart]
then wilson come save me . x.x
yesterday, i din go for dinner at winnie ee ee's house and went to work instead.
[T^T i cried at home, when i really din wanna go ...
AUNTIE ENDA ~ MY STEAMBOAT~ T^T]
then just work lorhhs.
cashier the whole day.
dumb.
fell down while doing cashier closing x.x
heng only ruby and nobody else saw... -.-
today !!!!!!!!
when to tuition and then to gekpoh, bought bread and went home.
went to minmin's house~
ate steamboat and had a small discussion.
guess wat?
urs truly is going to participate in the next fd mtg ~ lols !
but i really m.
went to ivy ee ee's house
did abit of article review. swam, save caven from zivan and quarrelled.
showered with clara :P and DINNER !
praise me ! i ate 4 plates of raw fish ~ xD
2bowls of porridge . the sotong veg ~
then went up to the rooftop which is very pretty,
(will post pics of it next time)
then went home ~

WHAT IS THIS?!!!?
what do u think i m?
a doll for pampering when u hav no special need of me
and a STEEL puppet when u need my help for smthg, is it?
u smile at me when u are happy and black face at me when u are not.
when i m NOT the person who anger you.
this little girl here is not just some ordinary happy-go-lucky pampered
missy who when u pamper her enough she will giv u wat u wan.
i hav gone through alot in this 15 years yet not overcome them.
in that way, I M NOT A PAMPERED LASSY AND I NEVER WILL BE.
u think bcos u noe my mother and she helps u to persuade me means i will agree?
sorry, but even she cant force me to do smthg i dun wanna do.
and just bcos i dun show my limits doesnt mean that i dun hav any.

NEW YEARR ~~~

2009-01-28T20:34:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a pretty wild day .
packed my pig-sty until lyk mins before my cousins came . x.x
i was showing everybody caven on my blog when casey said he wanted to play the com ,
and he totally introduced me to a game of damn craziness .
it's far more challenging than audition .
and i think i m kinda hooked on it now .

today was a pretty dumb day.
i think about 2/3 of the class went for physic afternoon lessons .
and then i went to band ~
the hanhan ask me play alone .
and my legs were lyk shaking damn badly .
his comment was, " u are a slow learner" . -.-
after band , went to buy chicken rice, accompanied by sl, choo and vonneh ~
was on 193 when i saw mummy on daddy's taxi ~
hahahahahahas ~ :D

NEW YEARRRR ~

2009-01-26T23:31:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARRRR ~~~ !!!!
^^

yesterday was all work, spring cleaning and sleep .
din even touch the com . -.-
ansd bcos i had no time to buy new year clothing ,
i borrowed one from mag . ^^
and her dress is ssooo cuuuuutteee la ~

today, is the first day of chinese new year .
went to kaofu's house .
made my self-made popiah .
the first one was horrible .
cant even find roll it . -.-
the second one was my first successful popiah .
and i m so damn proud of it . ^^
then clara and casey were bugging me to play wif the dog next door.
so i went to play wif the dog , vj . ^^
and vj was lyk ... harrassing me . -.-
but he is really damn cute lahhs .
i went up to sleep for abit .
then i came down to find vj .
found out that vj was harassing my brother . :D
we ate dinner then kaofu drove us home . ^^

Mag's dress .

Zivan ! {Taken on MRT twain ~ }

My Popiah ! :D

VJ ~

meee and charmaine jiejie ~

Charmaine jiejie's watch . so cool ~

VJ ! STOP HARASSING MY BROTHERRR ~ ! xD

Caven ! ^^

haiya , i haven really finished spring cleaning yet .
esp , MY ROOM !
ITS A COMPLETE DISASTER !
i dun think i will be able to sleep tonight ...
haisssss ~

night life ~ !

2009-01-24T14:46:00.004+08:00

i went to work yesterday .
then the toilet got so many ppl then i go to work late .
2mins ~
then the daniel uncle scold until i m so damn scared of him .
everytime i m near him , i feel very insulted . -.-
then at night , i think i did tell mag i din wanna go watch movie .
in the end , wan jin tell me he book my ticket alr .
so no choice , i hav to go . x.x
then after work hor , when i come back from changing ,
suay suay my slipper spoil -.-
then huishan go buy a new one with me .
but the new one damn heavy , leg not used. =.="
we went as a big group, 15 ppl .
then when we went in , they nid to check our ics bcos it was a midnight movie ...
they all hide me at the back and i went in first .
luckily , i wasnt caught . ^^
then we went in watch the love matters .
it was damn funny lorhhs .
and the guys behind laugh damn loud ...
then after the movie actually wanted to go with them for supper de .
but ! i scared daddy reached home before i did,
so the wan jin and keng leng send me home .
i reach home at like ... 3 ?

shall stop here today !
spring cleaning , spring cleaning ~
lalala ~
i m oso going to kaofu's house for reunion dinner tonight ~
barbeque ~
weeeeeeeeeeeeees ~~~ !!
x.x

bleah bleah la la ~~~

2009-01-23T15:44:00.002+08:00

so i said i was going to start spring cleaning.
maybe tonight. hmmmmm ~

a question i wanna ask the ppl who visit my blog,
when u first enter my blog,
can u actually hear the song or does it take very long to load?
bcos it does , for me.
must be my brother's com lousy le -.-
maybe i shld faster go fix my com .

i hav a lot on my mind these days and i m not very sure that most of them are worth me wrecking my brains or not . -.-
for some dumb reason, i canot seem to be thinking straight these days and i cant really focus .
it's seriously become a problem .
and i feel lyk i hav offended quite a few ppl bcos of this .
[please dont come and haunt me tonight, i still wanna sleep x.x]
i really have to think of a way to stop this. -.-

well, i hav to work at 5.
i better start preparing soon ~

Nonsense again ~

2009-01-22T19:55:00.009+08:00

I FOUND MY SHOEBAG ~~~~~~~~~~ !!!!!!!!!!!!
IT WAS AT PEPPER LUNCH ! IT WAS ! IT WAS !
I M IN HEAVEN WITH HAPPINESS ~

ohya , some pics ~

Special thanks to Angela for the photos
and Kailiang for taking the photos ~ !! ^^

this was on saturday ~
xueyun's advance 21st birthday !
at costa sands resort, sentosa .
got go de is me, angela, kailiang, jianzhong and weitong.
yeerong oso got go.
but she went with her own group of friends. -.-
2mrw i will be going crazy spring cleaning, so i probably wont online.
maybe not until sunday, when all the spring cleaning is done.
AND MY HOUSE STILL LOOKS LYKS A RUBBISH DUMP !
i m seriously going crazy le !
*faints*

my life was never meant to be filled with colours,
the evidence is that my mind is white and my heart is black ...
what's in my mind nobody will ever noe .
those selfish thoughts, those fake sweet endings and those too-perfect dreams ...
they will nvr come true .
pain and cries, tears and darkness .
what does it feel lyk to be strike by lightning, i will nvr noe .
all i noe is that , as long as this masks stays on my face for one more day.
my inner self will nvr hav freedom.
it's screams and shouts will nvr be heard .
not by you , not by anyone else.
and true-hearted smiles will nvr surface ...

idiot does dumb things ...

2009-01-22T15:13:00.004+08:00

ARRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
i m starting to think that i m an inferior lifeform ... x.x
i lost my shoebag .
the newest shoebag in the house and i merely used it ONE time .
and i only found out lyk THREE days later after i shld have brought it home . -.-
i MUST be a nano-brained living idiot .
i really feel lyk dying ...
i m going to pepper lunch later to check whether i did left it there or not .
[ Praying very hard it is ...
Nam-myo-ho-renge-kyo , gohonzon , please bless me .
and bless my shoe bag that it will be found soon. ]
but if it isnt , let's hope i dun break down .
my brother's gonna kill me .

22/1/09 : the nano-brained inferior lifeform idiot monster feels lyk dying . T^T

dumb useless fella .

2009-01-19T16:51:00.002+08:00

i feel so damn useless .
instead of working, i seem to be bringing more work for others .
and that is definitely not a good sign.
i dropped a salt bottle and broke a chilli bottle at work yesterday.
how much more useless and dumb can i get?
maybe not going to work might decrease the workload of pepper lunch workers.
i m so damn guilty and upset right now.

school today is nthg interesting.
and i haven started spring cleaning yet.
my house looks lyk a rubbish dump.
shld pack soon.
how i just wish my brother wouldnt be so unhelpful
as to leave all the housework for me to do.
speaking of my brother, walao !
he is so damn rude lorhhs.
on sat, 2 girls came to our house to ton.
then he lyk very wat lyk that.
he keep asking me to shut up and get lost.
he think he wat? got friends come means he is the king arhh ?
he dont think bcos his friends here i dont dare to scold him lorhhs.
i giving him face only la...

hand busy , leg busy . >.<

2008-12-16T21:28:00.002+08:00

well , i m getting used to my leg being tired after work
cos of standing for several hours .
but it's still tired ! pain ! x.x !
today , i tried being the cashier for the first time .
then i got all confused . -.-
and i cant even cap a cup properly , go die , zoey .
but , at least , after 3hours of training ,
i was able to do better .
but still shou mang jiao luan de . -.-
try to do my best .
today , after work , i went to find jurong point de pepper luch ,
but i cant find it anywhr .
and since my leg was breaking , i went home .
it's opening on 26 . ^^ hehhehs .

work , and injection ?

2008-12-09T18:42:00.001+08:00

lalala ~
so i started work lyk last week .
but , let's just say i m lazy to update .
about work , my legs are stiff buffalo's meat right about now .
although i hav only worked for 3days -.-
then , bcos i m working in f&b , i hav to take an injection .
which i took today .
it was ... not as bad as i expected ?

new handphone !

2008-12-01T00:34:00.002+08:00

woweeeee ~
i bought a new handphone today ! ^_^
sony ericsson W595 !
it's white in color and it is so cool ~
lalala ~
i m off to play wif my new phone lerhhs ~
^^

naa naa naaaaa ~

2008-11-28T22:17:00.002+08:00

i am horribly disturbed by a damn dumb cold right now .
i feel lyk my nose is about to fall off any moment . -.-
oh well ~

i m starting work on monday ! whoo whoo ~ ^^
but i dun really noe whether i can do it anot .
anyway , i will try my best ...

i m going to my charmain jiejie's house .
to stay ~~~~~~ !!!
weeeeee ~
it's been so long since i last went to stay .
happy happy happy ~
naa naa naaaaa ~ !
weeeeeeeeeeeee ~

playtime's over , Zoeyyy !

2008-11-25T21:39:00.001+08:00

and so , cos i tot tat i might rot or get addicted to com again ,
i have decided that maybe i shld work after all .
i m going to interview 2mrw night .
Zoeyyy , please dun blow this up ...

bloated up to the sky ... -.-

2008-11-24T18:34:00.002+08:00

i went to band again today -.-
noticed we had a new tutor .
he smokes and eat sweets and drink sweet drinks and blow all3 of our instruments .
then vonneh complain him , then he lyk very buay song -.-
end of band .
i collected my ic !
omg ! it's so damn ugly -.-

agter band , me , vonneh and peishan went to eat sakae .
we order alot and alot more .
then at last , due to too much vinegar in the sushi .
i felt lyk vomiting and eventually , i gave up .
then we da pao the unfinished food home .
i until now still feel lyk vomiting -.-

babababahhhh ~

2008-11-16T22:01:00.002+08:00

wahsehh , this few days ,
got the feeling of changing my blog the url lehhs ~
and turning it to a private one ...
maybe i shld ...

on friday , i finally went to band ... -.-
i was like , keep counting the number of hours before band ends .
then i had to bring instrument home .
damn heavy , i about 2 years nvr bring home instrument le lorhhs .
hand damn pain ... x.x
then at night , went to eat sakae wif vonneh .
damn funny lorhhs .

then i yesterday went to eat steamboat buffet wif my family .
then i went to pioneer mall wif daddy .
daddy was lyk , u go out how come can spend so much money .
LOL

my boredness , my jealousy , my pain , my sufferings ...
my selfish thoughts for myself ...
my selfless thoughts for other people ...
my heart and my outer mask ...
confused and panicking ...
scared and trembling ...
but what can i do ?
i can even envy cockroaches ,
they have things that i want for my whole life and now have very little left ...
the song of the heart ,the truth of the darkness ...
the things i seek ...
can be attain by ppl with or without courage ...
but yet , i haven yet attain them and it doesnt seem lyk i would .
the care , the concern , the attention of the people around me .
i cant even get such a small thing .
even if i hav , it's in very small portions .
am i selfish ? or m i ignorant ?
maybe it would be better if i cry everything out then die ...
the whole world would be happier .

the sky's foggy -.-

2008-11-12T22:42:00.003+08:00

while , not trying to be lame , but it is really foggy outside in the night .
maybe it's due to the cold air ?

i hav completed hot shot . finally .
i love my computer when it's not laggy .
and guess what ?!
my brother's computer is coming home !
AND I DUN HAVE TO SHARE WITH HIM MY COMPUTER ANYMORE !
WAHAHAHAHAHA ~ :D

i m rotting at home and i think i will die in band .
so , zoey , take ur pick .
die in band or rot at home ?
both are equally bad ...
somebody just ask me out for the holidays please ~
preferbally if it's to a buffet ~ ^__^

computer slows down ~

2008-11-10T21:35:00.002+08:00

i nowadays is it watching too much drama or wat ?
my com lyk start to slow down le lehhs ... -.-
i haven finish watching hot shot just now because my computer was slow and i got fedup .

another problem , my throat from last week until now haven recover .
zoey , go bang the wall .
and i tell u the medicine that the doctor gave me is so damn ...
horrible .
sweet not sweet , bitter not bitter .
cant tell whether i m in shape to gp to band or not 2mrw .
i m so going to be killed by yvoone when i m in shape to return to band .
then from there from in shape , back into no shape ... -.-

霹雳MIT OPENING lyrics

2008-11-10T21:25:00.003+08:00

霹雳MIT OPENING : 动脉 by 飞轮海

当月光被寂寞遮盖

心情像末日般黑暗

你怀疑城市快崩坏

谁可以信赖

当生命被推向悬崖

回忆瞬间快格倒带

你知道最后的呼喊

谁会立刻回响

我知道我就是答案

不怕你来麻烦

我知道当角色互换

你也一样照办

连接我的动脉感受彼此存在

热血互相灌溉温暖澎湃

流过我的动脉传送喜悦悲哀

同步心跳节拍同一个未来

: Jiro's RAP ( cant find lyrics ... ) ~

连接我的动脉感受彼此存在

热血互相灌溉温暖澎湃

流过我的动脉传送喜悦悲哀

同步心跳节拍同一个未来

credits by : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zBHC-ErmLYE

Dramas , dramas and more dramas ...

2008-11-10T00:41:00.002+08:00

wah !
for this week i hav stopped wif audi and anime .
and switched to ... TAIWAN DRAMAS !
oh-hohohos !
so the dramas i have recently completed are ...

-- 黑糖群俠傳 : The Legend of Brown Sugar Chivalries
-- 翻滾吧！蛋炒飯 : Rolling Love
-- 惡作劇之吻 : It Started with a Kiss
-- 恶作剧2吻 : They Kissed Again

i oso got watch 籃球火 : Hot Shot ,
but haven complete cos the last episode today just aired bahh .
so i think 2mrw shld be got ppl upload ...
then , then ! THEN !!!
THE 霹靂MIT COME OUT LE LEHHS !
OMG ! its arron's first leading role drama .
and gui gui is so damn cute ! x.x
the show is so damn nice man ...
霹靂MIT is being aired in taiwan every friday ...
so at fastest the i can watch the episodes are every saturday bahh .
and it has 14 episodes ...
the opening song oso not very bad .
i have just change it into my blog song .
so , enjoy ! ^^

DAMN SORETHROAT ! >.<

2008-11-05T00:11:00.002+08:00

wahsehh , got sore-throat until damn jialat .
den my bro and mum still call me to do things for them .
i going to die le la . x.x

tell u smthg damn dumb ...
just now horhh , i playing audi wif micc .
then when i go take xinyi's ring and wear hor ,
i immediately wear only my com dc ...
must be my com dun lyk xinyi ... xD

New hairstyle ! >.<

2008-11-03T12:52:00.002+08:00

ok , so i just came back from cutting my hair ._.
for this time , i though i'd be a little more daring and try smthg new .
so i cut concave . o.o
but i tell the aunty i still wanna tie my hair .
other than it's a little short ,
it seems lyk nthg's changed at all . -.-
but nvm ...
even if there's any changes , my hair will grow ..
and i maybe i might find a suitable hairstyle someday ...
^^

Audi SS2 ! >.<

2008-11-03T08:31:00.002+08:00

OMG !
AUDI NOW COME OUT SS2 !
AND ITS SO DAMN COOL LORHHS !
alot of old songs come back already !
AND DAMN ! I LOVE BEAT RUSH LOADS !
ITS REALLY VERY COOL !

sl , leon and kelly are leaving for s.korea tonight ...
hope they have a fun and safe trip .
and hope they remember to buy present for me ! xD

And DANG !
2mrw have band ...
its so damn a torture la , wth .
and then my section the members lyk dun lyk me lyk that ...
really , somebody please just kick me out of syf ......

Batam & Sec3 Camp .

2008-11-01T18:54:00.000+08:00

And so , i noticed i nvr blogged for a very very long time ... -.-
while , quite alot of things happened ...
fun , happy , sad , angry , scared , disappointment and many more ...

lets talk about batam first ...
actually oso not much la ...
only go there for one day tour and one day free-n-easy . o.o
AND ! AND !! AND !!!
i ate chilli crab for lunch and black pepper crab for dinner on the first day .
no wonder will sore throat the next day . -.-
and i really think hor , that the bus dont like me . why ? simple ,
i hit my head on the ceiling 6 times and had a big big scratch on my leg . =='
and we oso got go to one temple .
the pau there damn cute lorhhs !
got tortoise-shape and fish shape . :D
the hotel we went to is GRAND MAJESTY HOTEL .
very impressive right ?
but is really not up to my expectations la .
but its livable . ^^

next , the camp .
whole sec 3 shld be got about 300 ppl right ?
only 60+ turned up . -.-
the best thing is , 3e2 hav 39 ppl but only got 7 ppl go . =.=
jingqi , shermaine , yours truly , maimon , amalina , soonhui and hidayah .
how pathetic can this get ? o.-
then we joined up with half of 3e1 and became group 2 . ^^
name of group 2 : Sashimi ( My influence x.x ) .
instructor of GROUP 2 : Kenneth Joel Chandran .
members of GROUP 2 : the 7 ppl of 3e2 who went , szeling , evelyn ,
jueyi , weixian , zhiguang , griffin .
FIRST DAY.
went to pulau ubin . pitch tents , went for land expedition .
damn tiring ... -.- walk so much ! x.x
then we went to the highest point in pulau ubin .
the scenery there is so damn beautiful . so clear and so blue .
seriously , its a loss for anybody who din see la .
went back , me and kelly played with puppies . ( SO CUTE ! x.x )
at night , went for night walk .
i actually wanted solo-walk de .
then the instructor say i canot .
bcos i m girl and scared got smthg happened to me .
please la i m no 3 year old kid , i can take care of my self .
and so for some dumb reason , i was partnered with soonhui .
then i tot will like the anime like that ,
will got instructors or student leaders hide and come out scare us .
in the end , nthg . pretty boring larhhs .
after that , wash up , powder bath , slept .
i shared tents with sl , kelly and sher-lala ~! ^^
then at around 4+ , the whole tent was like waking me up . tot what happened ,
there were strong wind which look lyk they wanna blow us away and lightning .
and finally , rain .
we were called by the campchief to sleep outside the chalet .
SECOND DAY.
area cleaning and we went to changi the there .
first , went on the dragon boat . fun la .
but at times , i will blur , lose pace and start to panic .
and sher-lala sitting behind me will keep calling me to calm down . x.x
then while we were resting , the instructor allowed us to
put out legs in the sea , played viking and go into the water .
then we were asked to get back up by ourselves .
i think i was the longest lorhhs . and the funniest . -.-
i couldnt get up by myself , so the instructor pulled my life-jacket up .
then , my life-jacket the buckel unbuckelled two times ! O.O!
then they dont dare support me from the life-jacket lerhhs .
they pulled my arms and legs . lols ! :D
then we switched to kayaking . partnered with sl .
very fun , very tiring and hand very pain ! x.x
bcos must use hand to pull the kayaks together .
then we played some games lyk catching and getting the instructors to do forfeit .
then after playing , we carried the kayak back to the centre .
ITS SO SO SO SO DAMN HEAVY ! x.x
then we went to bukit batok the chalet there .
AND FINALLY ! OUR FIRST NICE , COLD AND PROPER BATH ! x.x
slept nicely indoors . ^^
THIRD DAY.
first activity was team-building . quite fun larhhs .
then was flying fox , damn scared larhhs .
when i finally went down , i waste all my energy being scared
and tense up that i got hungry . x.x
then we went for outdoor cooking .
ate alot and alot until time must lunch time extend . x.x
then i sit down tat time , kena burn by the anti-mosquito incense . x.x
after lunch , abseiling .
u noe last year horhh , after the experience tat i "bom ! bom ! bom !" down hor .
i nvr wanted to do abseiling ever again .
when i went up tat time , i cried .
when i went down tat time , scared tat i would hit the wall again ,
i kicked the wall . x.x
the best thing is , bcos i was scared , i closed my eye for the whole time . x.x
took a very long time to recover from tat shock .
and it's no more guess tat i might nvr hav the courage to do abseiling ever again .
then got the challenge rope course , my left leg was like shaking non-stop la . x.x
last but not least , the rockwall .
damn kanasai lehhs , when going my turn , stomachache . x.x
went to toilet then come out to try again .
by tat time , i left almost no more strength le lorhhs .
to until halfway then , "i surrender , i giv up " .
BUFFET ! CAMPFIRE !
for GROUP 2's item , we did a dance and 2 songs .
the dance was sway by pussycat dolls .
where the guys dance until damn gay . x.x
then the two songs are :
"wo xiang xin wo neng fei
i believe i can touch the sky
think about kenneth every night and day
sheik our butts and dance away
we made friends with the scary bear
za and fiza are the prettiest
instructors in the whole wide world
i believe i can fly
wo xiang xin wo neng fei
i believe i can fly ~ "
- tune of i believe , italics are names of our instructors ,
but not all la , due to time constrain ...
"we are the sashimi my friend
(mimi : by the way , sashimi is our group name )
we will keep on eating till the end
we are the sashimi
we are the sashimi
we dont eat maggi mee
but only SASHIMI ! ~ "
- tune of we are the champions , this is group song cum group cheer ...
after campfire then shower and sleep .
FOURTH AND LAST DAY.
pack up and brought bags down . slacked .
went to the high elements there do area cleaning ,
found tat there were no litters and went back to slack .
took photos , play playground and played catching . :D
then see them play daidi and played 21-dots .
then went back to sch . went to kfc to eat .
kena pangsehhed by sl and leon ...
then i went home alone ... so lonely ... lols ! xD
reached home . papa was lyk damn crazy when he saw me .
miss me too much le is it ?
mama oso ... x.x
only my brother ...
he come home only scold me .
think i gone for 4days 3nights he king of the house already .
he like he sister die already or he nvr had a sister at all . -.-
but still , if he wanna become the master of the house ,
he still hav to go through me and daddy . hmph !

i nvr said i was ok . nobody said i m ok .
who would be happy looking at their friend
with their backs facing them walking away one step by one step ?
but the world doesnt hav to noe wat i m thinking about .
i can face it myself . nobody has to noe .
if i were to say , they would think i m selfish ,
and it would increase my risk of losing the friends i hav .
i hav already lost all courage to make friends ,
so i cant lose those that i hav now ...
for every friend that i make , the fear of losing my friends increase greatly .
for every friend that i lose , the darkness within me increases by one great patch .
the darkness within me has grown so much i dont recognise who i m anymore .
maybe it would be better if i just disappear ...

end of sec3 year ...

2008-10-23T23:28:00.000+08:00

school days .
today is the second last day of school ,
and i m not planning to go to school 2mrw .
there's no point .
if i go to school only to sleep ,
then why dont i do it at home ?
i hav a more comfortable bed at home ...

while i m lying to myself , i lie to other ppl too .
to bring more confusion and chaos which comes back to cloud my heart again .
ppl i love , ppl i lyk , ppl i dislyk and ppl i hate ...
the darkness in my heart gets blacker and blacker everyday ...
and all i can do , is to cloud my eyes so i cant see it ...
the screams . the pain . the struggling coming from deep within me ...
and yet , all i am doing , is ignoring my inner self ...
and do as though i have been happy for a hundred years ...
showing the whole world i can do fine on my own ,
but the truth is , i more den anyone , is collapsing soon .
there's no need to tell them , cause it's my fate .
this , i admit .
while everybody has a smile on their face ,
not all of them shows their true emotions ...
their screams and shouts which cant be heard by anyone .
and a small hand reaching out , waiting to be rescued
from the sea of darkness ...
but for me , there's no point ...
i will not wait ... the pain there shall be left there as a wound .
the darkness there will grow ...
and this fake mask will continue doing as it shld .
and my inner self shall sink into darkness ...
until the day it is meant to see the light again ...

I FAINTED ! >.<|||

2008-10-20T13:18:00.000+08:00

yesterday was not feeling well for the whole day .
headache, strengthless, feeling very cold and vision keeps getting burred .
so i slept for almost the whole day .
i even lost my appetite in which i only ate half a bowl of noodles ! >.<
den nearing nightfall ,
we went out , wanting to meet daddy and eat my steamboat buffet .
when i was walking , i keep feeling giddy ,
thinking it was normal bcos i was sick , i continued walking .
until i reached the bus-stop .
my vision started to turn black all over .
then i completely lost all conscious and blacked-out .
i woke up due to hearing my mother calling my name
and the pain tat my head knocked on the concrete floor .
then i rested at the bus-stop for awhile before going home .
slept ~
when i woke up , i was lyk completely feeling well .
how can i tell ?
my stomach was growling and complaining . :D
then daddy brought us out to eat .
food was nvr so nice before ! ^^

as for today,
i m planning to spend the whole day at home slacking .
oh-hohohohos ! ^^

SENTOSA ~ !

2008-10-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

today we went to sentosa .
miie , angela , KL, MK , JZ and WT .
we played at siloso beach .
frisbee and sand .
den dey wanna kayak and so ,for the first time in my life ,
i sat in a kayak . when on the kayak ,
i was wondering whether we were going to capsize or not ?
in the end , it turns out to be safe ! ^^
and the scenery was beautiful .
den minkit went home ,
the rest all down the water .
played lots of things in the water .
and oso for the first time ,
i walked around sentosa bare-footed . =='
den we walk here walk dere and saw peacocks !
4 of them . they were so damn cool and beautiful creatures .
the only thing i did not see was a monkey . =='
after everything , we went back to vivo eat .
and when i was eating , i completely didnt noe jz went home ... =='
den we went to kailiang's house .
slacked then went home ...

I DIDNT GET TO SEE WB AGAIN ~ !!!
XINYI ~ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sm's birthday party !

2008-10-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

and so well ,
i didn't go to school today .
which was in exchange for next week i hav to go to school EVERYDAY .
EVEN to band . >.<"
i slept all the way till noon ,
then i went out to central at last minute notice .
met xinyi and her friends .
den went to take passport photo and went to lavender make ic .
and den the genius urs truly actually forgotten how to write her chinese name . =='
den we went to marina .
and i forgotten which shirt i wanted to buy . .__.
so i went to buy a new wallet . ^^
den we went to sm's house .
OMG ! for the first time in my life ,
i ate tat little for a birthday party .
i ate 2 hotdogs , 1 prawn , 1 salmon slice and 1 mayonaise mushroom ?
and that's it .
so now i m starving lyk crazy ... -.-"

I WANNA SEE WB ~~~~~ !!!! >.<

new blog , new beginning .

2008-10-17T23:08:00.001+08:00

i got fedup wif blogger and got even more fedup wif multiply ,
so i came back to blogger . =='
anyway , tis blog is merely ment for miie to share my thoughts .
so i dun really nid to update often .
only when i m in deep agitation of an emotion .
maybe happy ? sad ? angry ?
see first bahhs ...